Casan's Life

2011-02-16T00:50:00.002+08:00

So long since I last blog .

I'm just seriously not ok at all . Just seem that we're totally from
2 kinds of different world . I'm like a wife of nobody , but myself .
I told myself that you loved me , but each time , you smack me on the
face with reality . I asked myself many times , why would a guy who loves
you treat you this way . & again I find myself many excuses to cover everything .

It's been so hurting eversince I gave birth . It's just too much for me to handle , alone .
I'm not happy . Seriously not happy . But you didn't have the slightest feeling .
You're alrd not that someone that I could share my unhappiness & joy . Just too afraid to
tell you how I'm feeling . If I were to choose one more time , I'll rather I'm your friend .

You didn't know , one word or actions from you can change my day . Really .
I don't know how should I put it in words . So much we've done together & gone through
before disappeared in just a blink of an eye . It's so hurting to see how much things've changed .
Especially when I tried to flash back everything . They couldn't stop tearing me .
So much I want to tell you , so much feelings I want you to feel . But it seemed to be too late .

Guess one day I'll leave in silence to return you your freedom .
It's just too hurting to see us like that alrd .

2010-11-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm back to complaint to my dear blog .

You know , there's many through my mind now .
It seems to be so near yet so far . Many things that we've been through
together , I thought we were strong , strong enough . It wasn't .
Many changes , many . Not saying that I'm not at fault . Yes , I am .
That's why all these changes . I'm sorry . Really sorry . I want to see you happy .
That's all .

2010-10-10T23:26:00.006+08:00

I'm Back

My blog has been dead for sometime , I know .
Recently been busy with work , & I got so tired when I'm home .
It's like finally yangyang's going into his 5th months .
He's staying with grandmother as I've got to work .

He's doing so well now .
Started to feed him baby's food , & Mom said that he's teething soon !
That's really fast . Now I can't wait to cook some porridge for him . Lols .
Gotta wait for a few more months to really let him try the porridge .

Loves him TTM !

Shits , tomorrow working with that Old damn BITCH .
She's really something , that's one thing I can't deny .
She can really do push up for our boss's boob . Damn .
I don't understand , your f 50 plus years old , you should
be grateful that you're still able to stand in this line .
Please , If you are those who can't take money & commission stuffs
easy , then don't come into sales line !

Tell everyone how hard your life has been .
You are not married , no kid to feed , you have got
no worries ! You even tell everyone you only eat mooncakes
from hotel , you showed off how many countries you've been before ,
& when your sales not good , you tell people you're having a hard time .

C'mon , please wake up your mind .

2010-08-17T23:47:00.007+08:00

Peektures of Precious .

Precious is 3 months & 5 days now . He's able to turn his head fast but not that stable yet . He likes chewing on his own little fingers . Wants to watch TV while drinking milk . Wants to talk & play with anyone that he sees . Will cry for attention . Doesn't wants to sit for too long . Loves to smile & giggle . Tomorrow's gg to polyclinic for his jab . Loves little precious to the max .

2010-08-05T19:41:00.003+08:00

Once Bitten Twice Shy

Just got home from work . Now my poor little toe hurts
even more . Went back to Batok see Precious yesterday .
I miss him . Now he'll wants to talk so much . Just loves him
to the max . He's grandmother's saying he doesn't look like
2 months plus . No matter what , we loves him .

To Bugis to get some clothings with Loves . & to Chinatown
for his purfume too . Loves chose a nice top & bought it for me .
Thanks . Caught Tekken at Illuma too . I just loves the time
when there's only the two of us .

I Miss My Son !

Hopefully everything would get better .

2010-07-31T12:26:00.003+08:00

Bad Bad headache .
Kind of hangover alrd . Enjoyed myself with
Mom & friends yesterday . Thanks for being there .

Readers , any part time job to introduce ?

Yangyang ,
Mommy will earn lots to let you enjoy the best .

Mommy's gonna loves you even more from now .

2010-07-23T20:55:00.002+08:00

It's been a long day today . Am super tired .
You know what ? After looking at so many pregnant ladies .
& ladies who've just gave birth , suddenly I missed my pregnancy
days . Hahas . Kind of missing the anticipating feeling , & the moment
when I'm in labour . The feeling was like , wonderful ? Cause it's like
"FINALLY" I've gone through for that few months , & now I'll be
able to see that little sweet I've been carrying for the past few months .

I think I'm crazy alrd . Hahas . Anyway , I've been feeling giddy since
last week or so . I don't know why ehs . Can someone tell me what's wrong
with me ? I'm like a over work machine alrd . I don't want continue alrd .
I wanna go rest alrd . Byes world .

2010-07-23T00:42:00.003+08:00

Some photos to share
Took few days ago .

I'm very very tired alrd . I just can't get any enough sleep . Everyday ! Sleep at 3am , wake at 6am . See ? I'm going to collapse soon . I'm gonna go sleep after this post , as I've to take care of Yangyang all by myself from today till Sunday . Hopefully he'll sleep through the night these few days . If not I'm gonna be like a working zombie .

Currently at In-laws house . Moving in for 2 weeks next week . August to Woodlands alrd . Gonna be a long journey to work . *&^%#&(@ & maybe less time to see Yangyang alrd . Recently , don't know what happened , I'm feeling giddy all the time . Even when I'm sitting down doing nothing . I think I should go get some rest alrd . Nights world .

2010-07-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

On MC since yesterday .
Was feeling giddy & nausea for don't know how many days .
Went to the doctor , gave me 2 days MC to rest .
He says I should rest more . I'm just being overtired .

13th July -

Still , work as usual for us .
Knock off at 530 pm . Went straight to Vivo .
Then bought a gift for Beloved . Went back home after that .
Was alrd 8 plus . Took a short nap , woke around 930pm .
Prepared to meet Beloved .
Cab down to D'zess , met Beloved .
Passed the gift to Beloved . I think he'll like it .
After that to Red ant . Then home sweet home .

Although there's nothing much surprising ,
still , it's a special day for us .

& also , Happy 2 monthsary to Yangyang .
Time has been passing fast . Though it's been tough ,
Watching him grow everyday . Everything's worth .

I hope it persist .

2010-07-11T12:23:00.002+08:00

Just wake up .
Having some hangover now .

Went Dzess last night for Mom Yawen's birthday
celebration . Saw so many people there . Was a fun night .
& also a night for me to know many things that I didn't know .
Especially when It has alrd passed so long , till yesterday then I know .
Although you were honest yesterday , but somehow I still feels like a clown .

Not once , but many times . & each time , disappointment became stronger .
I don't know what I've done to let you able to do this to me .
Things you shouldn't lie , you lied . Always .
I also can't understand , why should you lie whenever you're
going to Ratchada . You're making things complicated for the both of us .
I hope there's no lies from you alrd .

we've talked things out ,
Just lets let bygones be bygones ,
It's easy to forgive but somehow I can't forget .
Please change , cause you promised you will .

I'm anticipating this 13th .

P.S Readers , We are still very loving .
I just want to talk my feelings .

2010-07-07T22:24:00.004+08:00

Back to Blog

Took some pictures of Yangyang recently .

Just reached home not long ago . Today's a super tiring day .

Work till 530 , but I reach home at 7 . Thanks to the damn traffic jam .

My feets aching , even though I doesn't have to walk much .

I always thought 8 to 5 jobs are not that tiring compare to others ,

such as sales or F&B line . But , it's the same or maybe even more

tiring than that . Got to wake up real early one .

Went Westmall just now after I got home after work .
Met Sister at the lift , so she went there with me .

Spent 80 over bucks just in an hour . Shit .

I wish I'll get that damn uniform soon , so I doesn't have

to worry what to wear to work the next day .

& I miss YangYang many alrd . Didn't see him for 2 days alrd .

He's at my aunt house now , cause I need to work .

Need to wait till tomorrow then can see him .

Really miss him luhs , wish that I can hug him like crazy now .

I wanna give you the best .

2010-06-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

Lucas is in love with the pacifier !
He would cry & scream if he's " Tu-Tu " falls off .
One night , I was in the living room with Beloved ,
Lucas scream & cry so loudly , I thought he fall off the bed can !
Ran into the room . & then you know why , because he's "Tutu"
fell off , poking his cheek . I think he's calling for help . Because the "Tutu"
tried to attack his cheek .

I don't know why , he doesn't like to sleep at night luhs .
I've to run in & out of the room throughout that few hours .
He'll kick & kick , swing his arms till he hit himself
accidentally . That day Aunt was feeding him , his mitten fell off .
Then he accidentally scratch his face so hard that he start crying & screaming .

Sunday's Full Month celebration .
Little Precious got to shave .
Can't wait for confinement to finish , & see my friends !

Sorry readers , will try to post some pictures soon !

2010-06-07T15:57:00.002+08:00

Little Precious Full Month Is On This Coming Sunday .
Which is on 13th June .

Time & Location will be confirm before Sunday .
Friends , Please tell me or tag me if you don't have my number
by Wednesday if you guys are coming . (:

2010-06-03T14:41:00.002+08:00

One More Week
to Little Precious full month . Which means it's
also the end of my confinement . Finally lors .
Super tiring . Precious doesn't want to sleep at night .
Because he's hungry again . I mean , I've alrd made 3oz for him
one hour ago . & then still he doesn't want to sleep . He doesn't want anything
other than milk . So I made him another 1oz half for him . Just in case he
couldn't finish .

He finished it also . But there he goes again . MAKE NOISE AGAIN !
plus his flying hands & legs . Just passed another hour only ehs . Then make
milk again lors . This time I made nearly 4oz alrd . He also finish can !
But this time he got good boy , went to sleep after burping him .
But I guess it's a good thing , he'll grow chubbier .

Shall update with pictures soon .

Anybody wanna be my Little Precious nanny ? Hahas .

2010-05-21T09:36:00.003+08:00

Finally some time to sit down & blog .
It's never easy being a mom .
Wake every 3 hourly or lesser to feed Little Precious .
Change Diapers . Little Precious would pee on me sometimes .

Still trying hard to cope on .
Not breastfeeding anymore , still feel that I'm not a good mother
sometimes . I'll still lost patience sometimes . Maybe I'll need some more time .
Just suddenly , I've step into motherhood . Hopefully everything would
go smoothly for me .

Went Polyclinic for Little Precious jaundice check-up .
159 . Got to go back again today to check again . Hopefully
it has decrease . Little Precious is sleeping now .
I've made myself the herbal water to bathe .
Finally can bathe , I've been waiting for this day from
the first day of my confinement .

Wound is better . Can walk & do stuffs without the binder .
Engorgement is also better . Tummy also subsided abit , not
as big as the first day . Hope it'll get back to my pre-preggy
size . Except for the stretchmarks . I know it's not gg to go off .

Last night Mother , Father & Sister was here to see Little Precious .
& also to pass me the red date tea . Sister was very very sweet .
She bought a bottle of stretchmarks oil which cost 40 over bucks for me .
& also a Diamond necklace which cost over hundred bucks . So sweet of her .
I hope everything goes fine for her . I'm blessed to have such a nice family .

2010-05-17T16:11:00.009+08:00

Photos Of My Little Beloved

2010-05-17T10:56:00.005+08:00

Here to post my Little Beloved's birth story .

12th May , Wednesday -

Was sitting in front of the desktop , chatting with
my aunt around 10 pm plus, she was asking what
symptoms I've already had . She told me whether
I've been having bowels more often .Yes , I have .
Then she replied it's coming . Was so excited . At that time ,
I was supposed to go down to DoctorLee on Saturday
to confirm when got to induce . Maybe the earliest is 16th or 17th .
Then my aunt told me better before 19th , so she can get to see Little Beloved .
I replied her with a Hopefully .

12am plus , I had a bad stomach ache . I thought I was having
bowels again . So I rush to the toilet . I can feel the pressure .
So I push & push . But less then 5 minutes , the pain was gone .
I started to suspect something .

13th May , Thursday -

It's morning 730am . Beloved was supposed to go CMPB .
So I woke him up . He said it's still early . So we went back to sleep .

7.35am -

I felt a very intense menses cramp suddenly . I tried to turn to another
side , the pain was still there . Very intense . Decided to go toilet & check
first before waking Beloved . Went to the toilet , saw some brown discharge .
Was super shocked & excited at the same time . Cause I know I'll be giving birth
very soon . The pain went away , went I was about to walk back to my bed .
So I lied down again . But the pain came back , & its stronger .

Started timing , the contractions came every 5 minutes .
& each of it became stronger & longer . Quickly wake Beloved up .
It was around 750am . Called DoctorLee . He asked me to quickly go
down to MAH . MIL ask me to bathe & drink the chicken essence .
After that , rush down to MAH . 845am , I'm alrd in the delivery suite .
waiting for DoctorLee . & also doing the CTG .

Was in terrible pain lors . Was cursing & swearing in my heart .
Asking why DoctorLee still not here . Plus the nurse super rabak .
Around 910am , DoctorLee's here . Checked my cervix & said ,
" Very good , it's 3cm opened . " I was like , HUH?!^%$@!
3cm only still good . After that , he broke my water bag .
It's super painful can . Somemore after he break the water bag ,
the contractions was hell .

But from his facial expression , I can tell something was not right .
He said I'll have to go for an emergency C-sect due to placenta bleeding .
My heart pounded , when I heard it . I kept asking " Why , really
can't go for natural ? " He replied " No , we have to get the baby out
fast . Your placenta's bleeding. " So I kept quiet . After that , he went out
to tell Beloved . & then let me sign all the paperworks . Then I was pushed into
theater . The stupid nurse was dumb can , I was alrd in great pain &
she still jolly well take her time , some more put the blood pressure
thing wrong side . They then injected me with the anesthetic & then I fell asleep alrd .

Woke up & saw family & my Little Beloved .
Thanks people who came . (:

CONFINEMENT'S HELL .

2010-05-16T14:39:00.001+08:00

Back With Him

Just got home & settled down .
Little Precious is sleeping soundly .
Will update with Little precious birth story & pictures soon . (:

2010-05-11T21:57:00.002+08:00

Went check-up today , had cervix tested .
Glad to know that it has already opened 2 cm .
Was surprised when DoctorLee says it's already open .
Cause I didn't really feel anything . I thought there's still
no sign of Little Precious coming out yet .

So might be very soon I guess . Can't wait already lors .
DoctorLee says got to give birth earlier already , cause
Little Precious don't seems to gain much weight already .
Had CTG , after that he he said Little Precious heartbeat normal .
Could wait till next week . Got to go back on Saturday to check again .
So that he can give us a comfirm date .

Asked the nurse , they said Little Precious head is big , but still
able to try natural birth . Cause I wasn't hoping to go for C-sect .
Want everything to go naturally . Hopefully these few days Little Precious
able to come out lors . So that he could gain more weight already .
& everyone couldn't wait to see him already .

2010-05-09T16:47:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day

It's been a long time since I update my blog .
Wasn't doing anything . Just a little lazy .
Went for check-ups last week , Little Precious is
weighing at 2.7 plus . I wish he can gain more .

Went to DoctorLee last Friday , he said Little Precious
is growing , but he didn't gain much weight still . Sad lors .
Might need to induce if Little Precious still doesn't gain weight .
I don't know why like that lors , I'm really eating alot for Little
Precious alrd . So if that's so , probably it's next week my Little Precious coming .

Cramps became alittle bit more than normally .
Maybe because nearer to due alrd ?
Everyone hope to see Little Precious soon . Told him to
come out fast , so everyone could see him . But he's still naughty .
Doesn't want to be out yet .

Birthday & Mother's Day celebration yesterday .
Was staying at Beloved's place these few days .
Prepared Little Precious stuffs alrd . Everything .
Just awaiting for his arrival . Really thankful to all those
cousins . Helping us really alot .

Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms .
& a Big Big Thank You to my Mom for everything
she've done for both my sister & I for so many years .
I grew in a single parent family , for so many years , she
brought us up on her own . Without any complaints .
She'll do anything just for us . A BIG Thank You to her . Loves .

2010-05-02T18:37:00.002+08:00

Just woke up , it's super warm .
$%^#^#@%
Overnight at Beloved's place after Kg Bahru
last night . Bored , cause I can't drink or smoke either .
& the stupid backache is getting worst . Plus a combo of
leg cramping which makes me walk like a humpty dumpty .
So pissed off can .
Now I really wish Little Precious could come out fast .
MIL says because I'm getting nearer to due date .
So no choice , I've got to bare with it .

Next check-up is tomorrow .
Blood test to be taken . & Little precious heartbeat .
& hopefully he is gaining weight .

Anyway , last night when I was sleeping ,
I dreamt that my water bag broke . & then after that ,
I've been so busy making milk . hahas .

2010-04-29T12:39:00.002+08:00

Today's 36th weeks .
Went check-up the day before yesterday .
Felt cramps the night before gg check-up .
Don't know whether it's contractions not also .
Told DoctorLee about it , he ask me to start timing .
& must make sure Little Precious is moving everyday .

Next appointment is on Monday .
Need to test my blood again , & Little Precious heartbeat .
Doctor asked me to eat more . Cause I didn't gain weight .
Little Precious weighs about 2.2 only .
So these few days I've been eating like crazy .
& hopefully my contractions starts soon , & Little Precious to
arrive soon .

Recently starts to panic ,
there's alot I'm afraid of , like I don't know
how my life would change when Little Precious is here .
I don't know whether I can cope with it not .
Sometimes till now , I'll still wonder whether I've made the right choice .
Hopefully everything goes smoothly .

Anyway can anyone tell me when will all those stretchmarks go away ?
It's pissing me off alrd .

2010-04-21T23:06:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's 35th week .
Really can't wait to see Little Precious .
Time like passes slower then before , maybe
because there's too much anticipation .

Few more weeks to go .
Went check-up last week , DoctorLee says Little Precious's
head abit big . I ask him how , he say we'll wait & see .
Been running to the toilet more often .
& I'll feel cramps & tightening out of a sudden .
Even when I'm sleeping , the cramping & tightening sensation would
wake me up . Don't know why too . It's freaking me out can .
Little Precious has became more sensitive to the surroundings .

Tomorrow's Father's birthday.
Family planned to go MarinaSquare for Yuki Yaki .
Happy Birthday Dad !

2010-04-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

Firstly , I want to tell this particular person ,
you know who you are , don't be a kaypo or behave like
a piece of shit , trying to break my marriage .
Don't you think it's worst then a shit ? Trying to break people up .
I'm sorry to tell you , I trust my husband .
Too bad , I felt that he loves me .
& I believe what I see with my OWN eyes .
For people like YOU , can't even put your own name on that fucking
tagboard , I don't need you to tell me what my husband is doing outside .
there's no need for you to add salt & pepper .
To think that you can eat well & sleep well after breaking up a family ,
you are better off dead .

2010-04-06T17:25:00.003+08:00

It's super super hot today .
Woke up so early this morning , went down
with Mom to have our breakfast . Walked around
looking for those front button pajamas . Don't have .

Decided to buy it when we got go Chinatown .
& hopefully time passes faster . Just few days ago ,
I realized that my tummy got abit stretchmarks alrd lors .
Super sad lors , some more I still got weeks to go , by the time sure
very ugly one .

Showed it to Mom , She said " Sure have one mahs , you last time so
skinny , suddenly stretch so much . " Then I was like , okays lors .
Hopefully there won't be more luhs . Going 33 weeks soon .
Next appointment my doctor will show me my blood test result ,
see whether my blood got increase not . Keep telling Little Precious
to come out when I reach 37 weeks , Don't let us wait too long .

Anyway I'm looking for a massage lady ( those massage for people after giving birth one)
Any ?
Please let me know if there's any . Thanks !

2010-03-28T19:19:00.002+08:00

Just done with all the clothes .
Was supposed to be lying down resting , cause
I've not been getting enough rest lors , abit pissed off cans !
Cause my tummy is tightening every now & then .

I've been awake like from morning 8 plus lors .
As Beloved is coming after work , & Precious also don't
let me rest , so I went Westmall to buy KFC for Beloved lors .
So sweet right , I know . hahas .
Wanted to cab back , but there was no damn cab turning into the taxi stand .
So fast fast walk to the interchange take bus . Lanlan lors .
Beloved was alrd outside waiting for me when I reached home .
He asked why I don't order instead , I said cause I thought he not so early .
But actually is because I got the heart okays . hahas .

Saw Beloved enjoying I also happy what ,
after that Beloved like crazy , keep go online to download themes .
Download till afternoon then sleep . Then in the end don't know want to
put which theme . See lors , later sure cannot wake up one .

I'm gg to get changed & buy dinner alrd .
Beloved's gonna wake up soon .

Loves the 2 important Man . (:

2010-03-27T17:13:00.002+08:00

Has got Beloved's company last 2 days .
Went Westmall with Beloved yesterday .
Caught Kidnapper . Super nice .

Home sweet home after that ,
soon Beloved's gonna prepare for reporting & work .
Congrats Beloved for the upgrading .

Father came to fetch me for supper ,
went over to Mom's work place to fetch her first .
Then to Geylang for Tim Sum .
It's nice , but quite expensive . Father ordered table full
of Tim Sum . Couldn't finish lors .
Then Home sweet home after that , Sis drop off to meet her friends first .

Was kind of pissed off ,
cause my back is super pain cans .
So I quickly bathe & get some rest ald .
I think maybe it's because the extra weight I'm carrying .
Weeks away to see Little Precious .

There are 2 important Man in my life now .
Loves Them . (:

2010-03-25T03:17:00.002+08:00

Sleepless Nights

It's 3 plus am now . I couldn't sleep .
Pee , pee & pee . I could not rest at all .
But luckily managed to sleep abit in the afternoon .

Am 31 weeks already .
Time is passing super fast . Although sometimes
I'll feel that I'm like pregnant forever . But actually
it's passing fast already .

Anyway tomorrow's Beloved's off day .
I want to go get some rest alrd .
So I'll see him when I'm awake .

2010-03-23T04:33:00.003+08:00

It's nearly 5 am &
I can't sleep !

2010-03-20T19:15:00.004+08:00

Nearly Again

It's 7 plus in the evening now .
Time passed super fast , cause I woke up late today .
Woke up by the kicks in my tummy .
Little Precious's hungry .

Went for my prenatal check-up yesterday with Beloved .
Little Precious is 30 weeks now .
We saw Little Precious's small small butt . Hahas ,
super cute . Everything's normal . But still got to take
blood test on the next check-up to check whether my
anaemic got better not .

Gg back to watch Cruel temptation .
Super bored .

We've drifted .

2010-03-16T18:27:00.003+08:00

Bad Bad News

Heard a very very bad news from my dearest sis .
We will pray hard & harder .

Am soo tired now . Couldn't get much rest throughout
the night . Because Little Precious is playing on his own
inside me . & more hiccups . Went to the toilet for countless times .
Wake Mommy up , went down for a walk .
She says walking & moving around more is good .
Cause it'll be much more easier for me when giving birth .

Went MacDonald for breakfast with dearest Mommy .
Had my Sausage McMuffin . I was craving for it don't know since when .
But was just too lazy to wake up so early in the morning .
Went home , both of us went back to sleep again . hahas ,
I know it's fattening . Managed to sleep for an hour , & received
Beloved's msges . Soon he called , & we chatted for awhile .
It's alrd noon , didn't want to waste time sleeping alrd .

Get up , do all my things & buy food for my dearest sis also .
It's only evening now , I'm getting tired again .
I'm gg to get some rest soon .

Can't wait for Thursday to come .
Some time with Beloved .

2010-03-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

I Should've

Just let bygones be bygones .
I couldn't bring myself to get mad at you all the way .
Just makes me feel so uncomfortable .
& I felt bad instead of happy after you apologized .
Maybe I should've be more understanding ,
& should've kept quiet .

Whatever it is ,
I hope this is the last time .

2010-03-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

It's Coming

I'm Fucking Sick !
& my voice . Sounds like a alien .
I can't smell anything or taste anything luhs .
I don't know why .

Anyway , went Parkway for our wedding bands
last Saturday . Collecting it on this coming Wednesday .
Just another 5 days to our big day .
I can't describe how I'm feeling now .

Today's Beloved's first day .
Wish him luck for every sales .

Went Westmall yesterday with Beloved .
Had Pastamania for dinner , &
Caught All Wells Ends Well .
It's not bad .

Check-up on Thursday .
I hope my blood's fine .
Beloved's working , got to go alone .

I'm gg to bed soon .
Very very sick .

2010-02-25T02:20:00.003+08:00

Loves

Yes , I know I shouldn't be awake at this time .
Without a nap in the noon . But I just can't sleep .
Firstly , I want to congrats Us . Finally settled
all the ROM stuffs . & getting our cert real soon .

Yes , I know it has been dragged so long .
But I don't give a damn to what people thinks .
At least afterall , I still has a Loving Husband .
& we still get things done before Precious arrival .
So why care about awful comments , isn't it ?

I don't know what will we be like for the next 10 , 20 years .
But at least for now , I know you are there for me .
Worrying , concerning & anticipating with me .
I'm contented .

I'm27 weeks now .
& am getting alot of back aches alrd .
& also felt cramps recently .
Was abit paranoid , afraid that it might be Preterm Labor .
But guess I'm just thinking too much .
Cause it wasn't coming too close in time .
Precious's just getting bigger I guess .
Next check-up's on 4th March .
3 more months left , guess I should just seat back & enjoy
Precious's Kick-boxing before I have to get busy changing his diapers alrd .

2010-02-21T14:37:00.002+08:00

Time Is Passing Fast .

I'm just too lazy to blog sometimes .
Went for my check-up with Beloved On Thursday .
Took my blood test again .
For the anaemic thing . Hopefully everything is fine .
I've alrd gone through for 6 months plus now .
Few more months to go .

I can't wait for Precious arrival alrd .
But of course after his arrival ,
I won't have the freedom that I used to have alrd .
But to think back that he bought Joy to us too .
Maybe this might be alittle that I'm sacrifice-ing for him .
Or this is called "Mother Nature" .
I wish I could post Precious's ultrasound pictures here .

March's around the corner .
Hopefully we'll somehow get a Unforgettable memory .
It's once in a lifetime .

2010-02-15T15:55:00.002+08:00

Valentine's & NY

Happy Belated Valentine's & New Year . (:
Was a busy but happy day yesterday .
Went to Grandmother place , it has been years
since I last visited them on New Year .
Guess they are happy to see me there too .
But Grandfather don't recognize me . Sad .

Headed to Beloved's relatives place after that .
So many King & Queen of Gambler .
Received flowers from Beloved went I reached .
So surprised ehs . Might be only flowers , but this
shows that he got the heart what .
Some more not every places selling on New Year .
Thank you Beloved . (:

Then to Selegie , Liquid Gold .
Beloved met GuoHong , Orange & Denly .
Went there together .
Drank throughout .

2010-02-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

It's getting nearer to Chinese New Year .
Time's passing fast .

I don't know it's mood swing or what .
I just don't feel as Happy .
Damn .

2010-02-05T18:53:00.002+08:00

Bored

It's nearly 7 pm now .
Just woke up from my nap .
But still like not getting enough sleep .

Went check-up yesterday with Beloved .
Am 24 weeks & 2 days now .
Belly's still not getting into my way .
But I could hardly catch my breathe .
Kicks & punches are more powerful now . hahas .

Doctor says I'm anaemic .
& he's afraid that it might pass it to Precious .
I gotta do another blood test .
Hopefully it'll be fine , as i'm given some iron tablets .

Back To Square One . Sighs .

2010-02-05T10:52:00.002+08:00

Don't get JEALOUS ,
when you can't get somebody pregnant .

Says my Mother . hahas !

2010-02-03T11:50:00.002+08:00

Tired

It's nearly 12 noon .
Beloved's still happily sleeping like a dead log .
Had a late night yesterday . Couldn't be blamed .

Went Queensway Shopping Center .
Had our lunch there .
Shit . The Bak Kut Teh there really very rabak .
So pissed off .

Headed down to Chinatown .
Lan gaming for awhile .
Had Bbq steamboat for dinner . (:
Then home sweet home .

I don't know why ,
even the littlest thing can make me happy .
As long as you're with me . (:

2010-02-03T11:45:00.002+08:00

Hahas ! This is called Retribution .
This was what I've been through before .
God really answer to my prayers . (:

I'm pointing my finger at Your face ,
With a Laughter .

You know who you are .

2010-02-01T22:19:00.005+08:00

He Ate My Heart

Time's passing fast today . Or maybe
because I've game to pass my time now .
It's 1030 pm now . I'm waiting for Beloved
to come . Facebook-ing while waiting .

A family gathering with Beloved's Family on Saturday .
Had Steamboat dinner , & then headed
to Bishan Park there for Prawn fishing .
Some people told me that I can't ,
some say Yes . I don't know . But I did . (:
Hopefully it's fine .
It was 130 am , headed back home .

Received funny calls few days ago .
Now I know why .
Because of their bloody problems again .
Can somebody like talk to her ?
If this don't stop , people's gonna blame me again .
For what ? For like snatching ?

Precious is KICK KUNGFU-ing !
Since last night he's kungfu-ing alrd .
I cannot get myself to sleep cans .
Naughty , & it's like Father like Son .
But I still Loves the both of them luhs . (:

Beloved's a Monster (:

2010-01-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

I am very angry , cause I can't post my pictures .

Spent another day at home . I'm darn bored lors .
Planned to visit Grandfather at NUH .
But it was cancelled last minute .

Chatted with my Aunt on facebook .
I guess everyone's anticipating for Precious's arrival .
Especially Grandmother .
Step sis's only a Child , & she's telling everyone that
she's becoming "Ahyee" alrd .

Tinkle's making funny noises ,
cause I kept her from walking around the house .

Precious's kicking more often now .
& he's Growing fast . My legs cramps like hell
when I start walking around .
But had anyone heard of pregnant lady getting gastric ?
Darned , I'm getting it . & it's always out of a sudden .
Luckily Beloved was always there .

I can't wait for my Big Day to come . (:

Lastly ,
Please watch over Grandfather .

2010-01-29T09:52:00.002+08:00

Loves .

It's 10am now , can't get back to sleep .
Accompany Beloved downstairs .
Wish him luck for the interview .

Spent my time with Beloved .
I'm very happy to see him changed that much .
& I expect to see him remain like this or get way better .
Now , I felt that I didn't make the wrong choice .

It's near to February .
Few more months to Precious's arrival .
I know there'll be many conflicts ,
& not much time to stay as close as we are now ,
but as long as we're still as Loving .

I really felt Loved ,
it's so worth after doing so much .
Last but not least ,
I wanna Grow old with you . (:

2010-01-28T15:25:00.001+08:00

I Need A Job Luhs

2010-01-23T08:02:00.003+08:00

So Much Happiness .

It's 8 am , was awake from 6 plus am till now .
Woke up by my sister while i'm sleeping soundly .
She didn't bring key out .
Got to wake up & open the damn door .
I'm very tired , but I just can't go back to sleep .

Went check-up with Boyfriend & his mother on Thursday .
Get to see precious's face . & hear his heart beat
for the first time . I don't know how to describe
that feeling , unless you experience it yourself .
Saw precious gender , we got what we hoped for .
A Baby Boy . (:

Just a blink , I'm already a Mother .
Though I'm Young ,
But I Believe that I'll never regret .
Cause I've a Wonderful Family & a Loving Husband . (:

2010-01-20T13:34:00.003+08:00

A New You .

It's the 4th day Boyfriend's out .
It seems Stronger with alittle Drifted .
Liked the way you treat me now ,
& how much you've changed .
Hopefully , this Last .

Cause I still wanna Grow Old with You . (:
& Us to be there for Precious .

Unexpectedly ,
My Life ,
At the end , It was You . (:

2010-01-15T22:34:00.003+08:00

It's Coming .

It's 15th . & it's 1040pm now . Still left with
not many hours to meet you . I can't wait already . (:
Received your letter as well . Not as sweet , but some sentences
are enough to brighten my smile . (:

It has been a long 2 months . & I'm sure there'll be
some difference . But hopefully we will cope
it well together , no matter what it is .

Precious & I are counting down . (:

I want it as Sweet ,
I want it as Strong ,
I want it as Love-able . (:

Pray hard .

2010-01-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

2 More Days .

Another few more minutes to 15th . You should be
counting down too . Getting closer to see you soon .
What will it be like ? I'm still wondering .
Stronger or Drifted ? Have been dying for this day .
& it's coming .

5months & 1 day .
You are growing . (:

Skin is getting better .
& hopefully it won't come back for the rest of my life .

Pray harder .
We are counting on .

2010-01-12T20:41:00.003+08:00

Counting Down .

It's 12th today . Super happy . (: Am already anticipating
to Saturday . 4 more days to see you . (: Seems like 45234 years
since i last see you . Dying for this day to come . From counting down to
visit you , & till now to counting down to fetch you . It seems long & slow .
Had been going through alot . & Hopefully you've think alot too .
About everything . As it's different . (:

Things are coming back soon . (:
your phone calls & msgs . Everything .
Can't wait to go see precious together .
Precious is counting down for you too .
Kung fu-ing at nights seems like a hobby to precious already . (:
Don't really sleep well . & now , the right side of my tummy aches .
Whatever it is , it's a wonderful experience . (:

Skin just improve alittle bit more . Doesn't itch that much already .
& hopefully it'll recover in days . (:
Pray harder .

Grow old & see you grow , together . (:
Loves

2010-01-09T17:19:00.004+08:00

Kungfu-ing .

Evening soon , the weather's still superr hot .
Just alittle improve in my skin . Hopefully it heals
by next week . Sighs , it was just some false hope
given by that darn officer . Couldn't sleep the day before .
& woke up so early with a anticipating mood .
In the end , it was empty hopes . Shit .

Next appointment's on the 20th .
This time shouldn't be anymore delays . (:
Cause there's shouldn't be anymore mistakes
in your releasing date right ? (:
Should be able to know it's a boy or a girl .
Looking forward to that appointment so much .
Few more days to the 5th month .
Seems busy kungfu-ing inside . & i felt like there's
pop corn inside me . (:
Should be missing you alrd too .

Am anticipating for many . (:
& pray harder .

2010-01-05T21:17:00.003+08:00

Eczema .

Already the 3rd week with eczema . It's fucking killing me .
Itch at night makes me feel sick & tired .
It looks rather ugly too . Kept myself at home other than work .
It just won't help , no matter how much moisturizer i've applied .
Just spreading like nobody's business .

Went to the doctor . Couldn't get any help .
He said maybe because especially there's precious now .
Hurts so much to see my skin like that .
& the worst is noone knows when it's recovering .
Sighs .

Pray hard .

2010-01-01T15:38:00.003+08:00

New Year .

Woke up at 1pm today , craving for foods .
Super irritated that i couldn't post the songs .
Spent time watch Cruel Temptation online .
but i've got to prepare for work alrd .
Tired alrd , shall post tonight .

2010-01-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

Close To You .

It's 31st . The last day of 2009 . Tomorrow will
be a new beginning for everyone in th world . & of course ,
getting nearer to you alrd . Another week to see you .
Seems like bad news turning to good . & it's a good beginning .
This news will be the best gift for my birthday , Christmas & New year . (:
Recieved your letter as well . Seems like years eversince i last saw those
sweet talks from you .

It's 4 months . Many many discomfort also .
Felt frustrated at times . But got to bear with it . I know .
Although got to go through this alone for the time being ,
but believe that it'll be different when you are out .

Tomorrow's working as well .
Just finished the diary , taken my medicine .
Felt drowsy . I'm off to bed .

Many Loves .

2009-12-15T02:02:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday.

Yesterday was my birthday . I wish boyfriend was here . (:
Went out with Mummy . Was disappointed that I didn't
have enough time . Finally internet's back . Was hoping for this
day for a long time alrd .

My father's crazy . He spent 200 bucks on some damn durians .
I rather he give me that money for something else .
30 over days more .
Counting down for you alrd .

Anyway , thank you very nice to those remember my birthday . (:

Miss you alrd .

2009-12-04T13:23:00.004+08:00

Many miss .

Today's only the 18th day . Saw you today .
Am also consider lucky that i can see you today as well .
Left my IC with my mother . Shitted myself for that .
Never expect to see you the moment I realised that my IC is not with me .
Really grateful that I end up talking to you in that room . (:

Another week to my birthday . I wish you were there .
But thats just being naive right . hahas .
Just a birthday wish from you today , & I'm really contented . (:
Going check-up on that day as well .
Mommy is going with me . & of course celebrating .
2 weeks to 4th months .
Looking forward to see my precious .

You & Precious were the best gift from God .
But there's something I'll never had enough ,
It's the love you gave me .

2009-11-24T17:52:00.003+08:00

Anxious.

Today's the 7th day . Miss you alrd . Thankful that
i was able to see you today . Many many things ,
& i was dying to run to you sometimes . Wrote many
many in my diary . But it can nvr compared to seeing
you face to face .

Next dying date to see you will be on the 3rd . I wish time
passed faster . Everything became quiet eversince i have
to start dying to see you everyday . Won't deny that it wasn't
easy . But told myself & my precious , i should trust that it's
worth it . Because it's for you .
I remind myself that it's something We should
overcome together . & made a promise to myself that no
matter what , I'm Strong enough .

I want Me to make You the Right choice (:

Something I should called it Loves .

2009-11-11T09:36:00.003+08:00

A little not used to my blog . Has been a long time since i last update my blog . Thanks to my father . Woke up so early today . Am gg to NUH later . Slept for the whole day yesterday . Was nearly shocked to death when i was awake . Still having lots of confusion in my mind . Is it normal or abnormal ? Checked online , i still don't get a clue . At last still got to wait till i got to NUH for the answer .

Felt like a bloated ball now . I grow fat alrd cans . 2kg lors , ate too much lately . Another last few days with boyfriend . Good news comes with bad news , still haven't dare to imagine how is it gg to be like . I've never expected it also . & what else can i hope for now ? Of course is hoping for the judge to sentence as light as possible .

2009-10-11T03:23:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i last updated my blog .
almost forget my password .

Am now at lan with boyfriend .
But the computer here is fucking jialats .
can't play my favorite game .
My computer at home cannot use internet alrd .
My dad dint pay for that fucking internet .
so pathetic cans .

Was supposed to work today ,
but took Mc , tomorrow also off .
Can rest alrd .
Currently working at The Bluez ,
located at Jurong point . (:

2009-08-17T14:15:00.002+08:00

I just woke up by the television's sound .
Am still tired can .
Went pooling at Timah yesterday .
& saw some fake people there .
& having some attract attention boyfriend there .

Not making people admiring you ,
but making people laugh at your childish boyfriends .

Going to get some rest again .

2009-08-14T18:34:00.005+08:00

It's Counting on .

Yesterday was our's 1st month . Just a blink , & there goes a month alrd . Which means honey moon period is lesser & lesser . Hahas . But of course , we will try to stop that from happening . Was actually not drunk yesterday , but in the end still got drunk . Cause we were happily drinking that damn Chivas at home . Boyfriend is still happily sleeping like a dead log now . Or maybe he lost his way in Grassland . Planned to go down Kg Bahru tonight . Drink , drank & drunk again .

Had a long night working yesterday . Not many people , die . Chatting & pooling all the way , kind of bored . Jessica's sister was also there . Chatted with them all the while , & some girls talk . Mommy came outside to join us . & she did something unbelievable . We just scream like idiot . Hahas . Spent our time talking about relationships . Boyfriend came , Then went off at around 330 . Tired .

Every different got it's own unique .

& they give you different memories .

2009-08-12T04:25:00.003+08:00

Finished gaming on facebook .
Very very boring .
Many many action babi .

Dinner at 283 .
Mommy's treat .

Searched for the song Soledad .
Yes , it's nice .
Pretty sad also .
Tomorrow working . Shagged ehs .

2009-08-11T14:26:00.003+08:00

Just woke up with abit of hangover .
& i can still smell the liqour in my breathe .
Now i felt that i shouldn't have answer that call .
I'm shocked luhs , my mind just went blank .
Other than replying '' Ohs , i know. '' or
'' Okays '' , i really don't know what else to say alrd .
Really cannot imagine .
But still , trying to stay polite .
I may not know what to reply ,
But i know what to do alrd .
Just rest assured .

I Became Speechless .

Yes , i know .
I'm complaining like a aunty now .
But what to do , received a combo just right after i wake up .
I ain't angry , But i'm disappointed .

2009-07-28T02:50:00.007+08:00

It all Matters

Met boyfriend on Sunday . Went from this place to another . Boyfriend fetch me at around 8 plus . Then to Bugis , met his friends . Then to Fusion , billard-ing . After that , to Geylang if i'm not wrong . & then Labodor Park , then to another place . I don't know what's the place call . Took some pictures . Grabbed it from boyfriend's friend's profile . Thanks ! (:

Had a long long day today . Viva closed early , that's why we get to knock off early . Chatted with Mummy they all outside . I don't understand why some people like to poke their nose into others business . Just tell the whole world that i've hurted you so badly .

I don't care how people's going to feel about me , they must've thought that i'm selfish & fuck up to treat you this way . I don't care . Put your pillow higher before you sleep , & ask yourself , didn't this girl treated me nice once . Then start spouting with all your nonsense craps .

Angry .

2009-07-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Finally my computer is back .
Have been missing my computer for weeks .
But some of the files isn't install yet .
& i can't send my photos through bluetooth .
Can't wait to upload our photos .
Damn it .

Was Drink Drank Drunk yesterday .
Went Speed Legend & Next Stop .
Was with boyfriend & Kok Hong .

Was surprised by boyfriend's msg .
Thanks boyfriend !

2009-07-15T09:42:00.002+08:00

Just reached home , & finish bathing .
Was drenched in the rain .
Went back from Katong ,
Half way boyfriend said ,
"Dear , you got to go under the rain with me alrd . "
Thought it wouldn't be raining so soon .

At last still cannot get away .
At first was still alrights ,
then suddenly rain free free like that .
Boyfriend no choice got to turn into the patrol station .

Waited for 1 hour .
Romantic siol . Knn .
Was quite touch , boyfriend still send me all the way back .
He was shivering all the way .
So sweet right .
Thanks boyfriend . (:

Boyfriend came at 9 plus ,
Went Pasir Ris to have our dinner .
Caught transformers at Downtown with boyfriend ,
Complicated but quite nice .
Headed to Eastcoast , boyfriend played billard .
& then to Katong for Left 4 dead .
After that went to somewhere there eat again .

Then that irritating cats & dogs started while we're on the way back .

Lastly , i hope i'm right this time .

2009-07-14T16:14:00.003+08:00

Grandmother came to our house .
She's still the same . (:
She said i look alike with mummy .
Of course , she's my mummy what .

Thought of gg Hub with sister ,
cause we wanted to go shopping .
But she need to go over her boyfriend's place after that .
The time not tele , cause boyfriend's
only coming to fetch me at night ,
but it's still so early .
& I doesn't want to make so many trip .

Am gg to get my nails done .
My toes look pathetic now .
Gg to catch Transformers tonight . (:
Recently my blog's quite plain .
Gonna upload some pictures soon .

I wish time passes slowly .

2009-07-14T07:51:00.002+08:00

Daddy sent me to work yesterday .
Was kind of moody , due to my fever .
Chris , Keane & Fadzli came down .

Boyfriend came over to fetch me go eat .
& bought panadol for me .
& " forced " me to take the panadol .
I detest panadol can .
Nearly choked to death before .
But in the end still take it .

Now i'm feeling better .
Thanks to boyfriend . (:

Lan gaming just now .
We're like gan chiong spider can .
Just reached home sweet home .

Got to go bathe now . (:

2009-07-13T15:03:00.003+08:00

Just woke up by my sore throat .
Took my temperature , 38.2 .
But please , not H1N1 .
My body's kind of breaking down .
& the sore throat's killing me .

Have not been really so sick for the past few months .
Now i've to really take a rest .
But still planning to go work tonight .
Don't have the strength to post alrd .

2009-07-13T06:58:00.004+08:00

Just scold free free lors .
I'm sick & tired alrd .
When i held you back , you didn't give a damn .

Everytime when i'm leaving ,
then you'll start caring .
Always assuming things by yourself .
Just like you told me ,
You're not me , how you know ?
Just fuck it .
I don't care alrd .

Received Ahbee's call .
He just came out , kind of relieved .
(:

2009-07-12T18:41:00.001+08:00

Sighs .
No point alrd .

2009-07-12T06:36:00.003+08:00

Went Viva ,
celebrated Mummy's birthday .
He wanted me to wear white & black .
& i did . I waited & you wasn't there .

I've heard things ,
who am i to you ?
I've called every station .
But there's no news from you .
I've been listening to the song you used to sing .
& i'm thinking of you .

Take care boy .
I know someday i'm wrong for being stubborn .
But prove me wrong please .

I'm praying .

2009-07-11T16:22:00.002+08:00

I just woke up ,
didn't sleep much .
Woke up by every call & msgs .
Hoping it was you .
Received loads of msg & calls , but it wasn't you .

Pray hard .

2009-07-11T09:37:00.003+08:00

I thought it should be a wonderful time .
Now i'm asking myself , why ?
Came & gone .
It was too unexpected .
If i knew , i hope you wasn't here .

Pray hard .
I'm gg to sleep ,
hopefully when i'm awake , you're there .

2009-07-06T23:20:00.001+08:00

My fingers was stuck between that mother fucking door !
My fingers looks like ET's finger now .

2009-07-05T20:07:00.004+08:00

Today's mommy's birthday .
Gonna bring her out eat .
No , my heart's not with you anymore .
& i'm not gg to give any fucking damn alrd .

Fucking eat & sleep the whole day ,
one day you'll regret .
& yes , you're a piece of shit .

2009-07-01T20:14:00.003+08:00

Just came back from facial .
It was a last minute thing .
My eyes swollen luhs .
Tomorrow gg down Clementi remove my lashes .
Shagged .

I told myself to keep a distance from you .
Never to let you hurt me again .

2009-06-30T17:37:00.004+08:00

Chan Rak Khoon

Sister gathering on Sunday . Met up with Mummy , Joyce they all . Was fun . After that , met Shirley , saw ZhiHao they all after that . Asked Ahbee to come down find us . Thanks Son . (: Thanks for keeping me busy , so i won't think of anything he did to me .

I don't know what are you thinking about . Your hurting me without realising it . Piece Of Shit . Continue with all your lies .

2009-06-28T14:29:00.001+08:00

You're just a piece of shit .
Just save all your craps to the others .
I'm not the one you can fool around with .

2009-06-23T23:22:00.004+08:00

Another Me

Came back from Jurong East . Went to my previous working place to dye my hair . WanPing & another new guy did it for me . Nick do the cutting . Satisfied . (: Got a free Shiseido treatment . Softens my hair , especially after so much damaged to my hair .

Thanks to Wanping . Took out my extension . My head's feeling lighter now . Hahas . I think there'll be no regrets taking out all my extensions . For so long , i've not been able to comb through my hair . Now i can even comb through with my fingers . Nothing much to post alrd . Gg to watch tv . (:

2009-06-21T22:23:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday

It was Veron's birthday celebration , at Viva . It was quite fun . Many people came . Was quite tipsy . & because of that , i went off earlier . Woke up , & got a bad headache . This is what you get when you drank too much . Wanted to do facial today , but because today's Sunday , shops closing earlier .

So didn't get to do it . Should be gg tomorrow . & it's a must . Should get up earlier tomorrow . Kind of irritated . Cos wanted to do it since last week , but i just don't have the time . Talked on the phone with Shirley just now . Seems like we've drifted . Cos we got to work . & she's currently staying at her boyfriend's house .

But girl , let me give you some advice . If you're really not happy over there , just move back . Don't stressed up yourself . It'll not give any help to you & your boyfriend . You need to cool down . Anyway , i'm always willing to lend you my shoulders to cry on . (:

I'm now getting irritated by my hair luhs . It's in a mess cans . My mom says that i suits shorter hair . How ? Kind of confused over my hair luhs . Gg to get it dyed & trimmed soon . Sick & tired of this head of mine .

2009-06-20T13:37:00.017+08:00

Disappointment

For the past few weeks , have been thinking . & I've thot through alot of things . & I think there's no reason or things people have done to make me continue . It's just a disappointment . Love or don't love , it doesn't matter anymore . At least for these few weeks , i've done whatever i can .

But the outcome was still the same . I don't feel anything , don't get any concern . For these few weeks , i think i've been giving in more . So even if i leave , I won't have any regrets . The least I can do was to give in . Seems somehow can't forget you . Afterall we've been through . Especially , when we got caught by police & i got held back .

But since there's no more you & me , there's also nothing to reminisce about . There's a reason behind everthing . & my reason is , you neglected my feelings . It's the reason why i became sensitive . I'm tired . But at the same time , i loves . If i knew that this will be the outcome , i won't try to change things .

P.S I'm really letting you go this time .

2009-05-31T19:49:00.003+08:00

A Moment Like This

I'm f tired . Didn't get enough sleep since Monday . I'm breaking down real soon . Darn . I've to work tomorrow . Walking around like a zombie , & i'm working 4 days next week . Should really get enough rest .

Things just kept coming cross my mind . Did i gave you th feeling that i'm trying to do anything ? Or i'm thinking too much ? Hey , i didn't have any intention to do anything . This i can assure you & myself . I just want to get back my things , that's all . Trying to keep your cool or anything ? At least let me get my things back first .

P.S & i won't reminisce

2009-05-30T19:59:00.003+08:00

Overdued

Some overdued pictures . Monday till yesterday . Viva all th way . I've been drinking too much alrd . Should get some rest alrd . I maybe bad , but please , don't always feel that you're th only one who put in alot of effort . It's just a waste of effort . Sometimes , by putting in effort is important . But at th same time , actions speaks louder .

It was totally different . Some people just tend to say things which is as sweet as honey . But comes to their actions , everything was different . I'm f tired alrd .

2009-05-25T18:34:00.003+08:00

Workaholic

Had been working this few weeks . I enjoyed working there . It wasn't as stress as th previous one . Went Cineleisure on Saturday , caught Night at the Museum 2 . It was nice . Kind of funny also . But before that , went Left 4 Dead-ing . Played survival , 20 over minutes .

Went Ten Mile yesterday , Left 4 Dead . Was fun . Am working today . Have to get myself ready alrd .

2009-05-13T16:57:00.003+08:00

Unpredictable

It's 5 pm alrd , i'm gg to get ready & go to work . Had a new colour for my tattoo , not bad ehs . Thanks ! Went Ten Mile , finish my package . It's kind of boring . My leg's swollen now , & i have to work later . Shagged . But my plan is , i'll work harder . So i could get my bike as soon as possible .

Promise i won't ride it , until i got my license . Hahas . I don't want to get caught & then waste all my efforts luhs . & after that , i'll have my tattoos . Lastly , my license . It's kind of long , but i'll wait luhs .

Received a message from Kester , hahas . Eversince i work , i got no time for them . I miss Son , Kester & those irritating people . Hahas .

P.S Kester , take care too . I'll meet you guys asap .

2009-05-12T17:14:00.004+08:00

HangOver

Went NaNa & Sabai yesterday . We were all f drunk cans . Darn , i'm having a bad hangover now . I've been puking since yesterday luhs . Spoil image . Arghs . Luckily i don't have to work tonight . But am working tomorrow luhs . Shagged . When are people coming down to give me their support ?

Am now preparing to go & get my tattoo some touch up . I don't care luhs , i want to cover th one on my back luhs . & next one i'm gonna put it on my rib cage & all th way down . Anticipating . Eww , i wanna puke again .

2009-05-10T18:52:00.003+08:00

Speechless

Am gg to get my nails done . Headache just won't go away ehs . Working tomorrow , people ! Pleas give me your best support luhs ! Shagged alrd . Post again later .

2009-05-09T16:08:00.006+08:00

Exhuasted

Felt exhausted . Didn't drink yesterday , but head's still aching . Slept for many hours , but i still don't feel good . It became worst yesterday . As Andrew fought with his brother . Guess what ? His brother is three times bigger size than Andrew . & he hitted Andrew first . I saw it ! He even denied when their mother shouted . He's a gay . & of cos besides sitting down & watch , I should pull them away . & yea , that f gay scolded me . Okays , whatever .

& then his f bitch sister came out , I don't expect her to help Andrew , but at least stop th fight . But at th point of time , she didn't help . Worst , she join in th fun . I was like , ?????? . All she's talking about , was always money stuffs , & about who contributed th most to this family .

She just simply thot that she's th most useful person in this world . She even shouted to her own brother to get out of th house . She's just a bitch luhs . Luckily their mother ask Andrew to stay luhs . The sis & brother is just a piece of shit luhs .

Not even one of them went out to console their mother cans . I f look down on people like them . By having just a little bit of money , & they think that their th king & queen . F those shits .

2009-05-08T13:07:00.003+08:00

Endurance

Today's my off day . & nowhere to go luhs . Felt unwell again . I'm f tired luhs , but just can't get back to sleep . It's kind of irritating . Started to work on Monday . Shagged . Guess my body just don't get used to it yet . Went back to night life out of a sudden . & i'm feeling sick now . Lazy to post alrd . Should go & get some rest alrd .

2009-05-07T17:20:00.001+08:00

Ready For Work (:

I'm f sick alrd .
sore throat's killing me !
Went Sabai , its nice . (:

2009-05-03T13:42:00.006+08:00

Would It Be Right

Just reached home . I'm darn boreds . Yayness , my eyes had recovered . Had a nightmare yesterday . Loud thunders in th middle of th night . It's kind of scary . Am starting work tomorrow . Hopefully , everything's fine for my first day . I've been wasting too much time . Yea , it's not a good job . But it's still a job , isn't it ? Guess i won't have much time as i had now to Lan-gaming , sleep & shopping alrd . But without working , there won't be any money to enjoy my life . So just get myself ready for working life .

Ps . I won't have time to meet you guys alrd .

2009-05-02T14:28:00.006+08:00

Sore eye's Killing

My sore eyes's killing me .

worked for th whole day under a super dusty place .

yea , & it causes my sore eyes . Darn . I'm hungry alrd .

Things suddenly came across my mind . Trust yourself .

Be yourself . Love yourself . Pamper yourself .

Please yourself , don't try to please others .

You don't always get things back in return for being good .

Was supposed to work yesterday , but due to my sore eyes ,

I couldn't work . Hopefully my eyes would recover by tomorrow .

There were too many things .
& yea , th worst is , we even stand behind that fucking truck for 30 mins .

2009-04-28T13:06:00.004+08:00

hellos (:

- Sunday ,

went Yishun . & caught 252 Signal of Life .
not bad luhs . quite touching luhs .
but not as nice as i've expected it to be . (:

- Yesterday ,

went Jurong Point , caught Friday the 13th .
its a darn nice movie luhs . heart pounds from
the beginning till th end . hahas .
saw YiJing before we were about to leave .
hahas , she gave me a good girl impression . (:

then headed to Causeway Point .
uhs ! its freaking hot luhs .
saw another ghost movie showing ,
so decided to go back WestMall for th movie .
but i dont really have th mood to watch luhs .

saw my cousin , hahas .
with his girlfriend , quite sweet huh . (:

then its time to home sweet home . (:

2009-04-20T11:17:00.005+08:00

hellos (:

arghhs , am tired cans ?

darn audition's driving me crazy .

just changed my blog's song . (:

hope people enjoy it .

doing nothing much this few days ,

only took some pictures of what we ate . (:

another good news ,

am working from 1st May .

wish me good luck please . (:

shit luhs , i missed riding days luhs ! ):

2009-04-17T18:48:00.008+08:00

hellos (:

im sick luhs !
my fever's coming back ehs . arse . ):

im sleeping like a pig cans .
brought my beloved ah gau Tinkle for
grooming . hahas . she was having furballs alrd .

my sister's gg over to bring her back .
cant wait to see her silly fur-style . hahas . (:

here's Tinkle's pictures after grooming . (:

Tinkle's fur got dangled up , so have to shave botak luhs . darn ! (:

she look tiny now . X:

went for manicure & pedicure .
th colour's not bad , but that lady was like
hoping for my fingers & toes to fall off luhs .

she's doing it like chopping my fingers & toes off .
shits . (:

my sore throat's killing me cans !
darn , im too shitting sick to move around luhs .

omg , & there's something too believable .
i actually received a msg .
& i didnt know how to react . (:

2009-04-14T18:03:00.007+08:00

hellos (:

arghhs , im superr tired luhs .
finally met up with Shirley , went CSC on Sat .
hahas , we were all like crazy people . hahas . (:

took some pictures too ! (:

Shirley & Casan (:

crazy-ly (:

hahas ! nice view ehs ! (:

&& steamboat-ing at turf city .

hahas , superr full !

hahas ! we reached there at about 5 plus ,

& ate till 11 plus cans ! like we nvr eat before . (:

shot by some ass (:

went for lan games yesterday .

met up with Son , Brother & En Jitttttt . (:

hahas , dota was nice ! (:

cant get to play L4d's new map . shits !

& forgot to take pictures luhs .

am gg to enjoy myself today . (:

2009-03-31T15:03:00.003+08:00

hellos (:

just woke up , & having fucking headache now .
saw someone's blog , & i realized that i've been
treated like a spare tyre cans ?
fuck , what's the meaning of this ?
its too obvious cans .

ended with her , & called me the next minute .
back to her , & im transparent .
what's this ? tell me .
those things you told me , were fucking different from
what people had told me . uhhs , whatever .
its not important to me anymore , im just
too tired of waiting & waiting .
i guess i should just move on with my life this time .

damn happy cans .
my bike's coming coming .
i'll be crazy if i can get it by next week !
hahas , pray hard luhs . (:
i want it ! i want it !

2009-03-22T09:06:00.003+08:00

hellos (:

yawns ~
just wake up .
was at home the whole damn day yesterday .
bored cans .
Shirley brought a DVD to my house .
it was a nice show , showing how those drug dealers
get caught , & how those drug addicts overdose & died .

arghhs , im hungry luhs .

dont know whats wrong with Ah Yeo .
his riding skills like sucks this few days cans .
shits ,
we even got into accident ,
& i cant imagine if the 2 of us
were not wearing jeans on that day .

but whatever it is ,
i think we're both lucky enough alrd .

im darn hungry .

2009-03-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

hellos (:

am fucking tired now cans .
arghhs !
at panjang now .
starting with the Audition .
play till giddy luhs .

had been working these 2 days .
earned quite alot .
hahas , if everyday like that ,
im gonna be rich . XD

kena put aeroplane again .
fuck .